should start blogging on happier days too
3:24 a.m. :: 2009-02-19

"AQUARIUS, your personal luck soars throughout 2009! Dreams come true this year - so dream big, and embrace life with new hope! Entertainment, social delights, flirtations, parties and sports - all fill your year. You'll attract others with your cheerfulness. A surge of confidence and optimism will speed you forward to hopeful goals. Your social life will expand mightily."

that all sounds wonderful enough, 2009 is supposed to be one of us fellow Aquarians' luckiest years, i can't say i'm feeling the luck yet, i must admit im at a miserable low-point ever since i came back from Europe, being back doesn't depress me, being in an unhappy relationship does. apart from the moving frenzy, the fear of not finding a job, not being able to speak french, no friends or a place to live, the main stress contributor has got to be the boyfriend, i suffer being with him, i'd suffer without him.

I had a long msn conversation with a new friend tonight, Etienne, we seem to have a lot in common, our crappy love lives and personalities seem to match immensely. i feel great talking to him and for the first time i felt truly encouraged to put the boyfriend behind me and move on. i think the astral forecast is right, i will make tons of delightful social connections, something to feel good about whilst im tangled up in this dismal relationship.

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