Returning from a long Dland break
10:40 p.m. :: 2009-02-14
2 weeks before my departure to Montreal, I find myself in a constant state of exhaustion, my heart flutters against its will. Stress does that to you. I always say I hope for the best yet prepare for the worst, but when you expect the worst, you live in fear.
I want to feel safe, to have a peace of mind, I want to be happy, I want to love and be loved in return. I want to make the best of my life. I know the Secret, I know the drill, if only i could find the button to switch off the agonizing anxiety that corrodes away my faith and strength.
Carol came over tonight, we had a little Valentine's celebration of our own, drinking Soho and Schnapps. Her presence and mellifluous voice brought me soothing ease. I'd be lucky to meet someone like her in Montreal.
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