what now?
11:00 p.m. :: 2008-05-09

i wish i were in more of a friends-making mood. i felt that way when i was jobless a month ago, anything and everything seemed so interesting and i was full of spontaneity and curiosity and willingness for experiements. now that im employed again, falling back to my old routine i am very uninspired and jaded, working really makes me a dull girl! although i dont dislike my job, it's physically relaxing but mentally challenging, good for a change. i just wish i could be more like myself, though, sometimes i get so lost i dont know who i am anymore.

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